weird, i heard this for the first time today.. it came on my pandora, and i immediatly thought of myself..
im a secret keeper :X . i have a billion of my own secrets, never shared, never will be shared, all inside of me. i just keeep everything to myself. apparently, its a horrible & unhealthy habit. i know it drives me crazy.. im just too nervous to show myself, and how i really feel sometimes. part of me just wants to be accepted so ill act as if there is nothing troubling me when there defintitly is. i dont want to see the reaction of others when i share how i feel.
i guess its just that id rather not have people feel badly for me.. or im afraid it might possibly hurt other people if i shared my true feelings. i dont know. im not exactly sure why. maybe i just feel that since whats going on around me is all fine & good, why ruin it with my own problems?
ive been told that i care about others way to much, and i dont give a shit about myself… im still not sure how to react to that statement. part of me says its truth, but the other part of me is telling me that its not a bad thing, make others happy, or at least try to. and even if i was to change that, i wouldnt know where to start. ive been like this.. forever. how can i change the way i am after 15 years of being me? im so confused. i just need someone i can tell ALL of my secrets to.
